{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Av. Deniz Can K\u0131z\u0131l","provider_url":"https:\/\/denizcankizil.tr\/en","author_name":"admin","author_url":"https:\/\/denizcankizil.tr\/en\/author\/admin\/","title":"Yazmasam Deli Olacakt\u0131m","type":"rich","width":600,"height":338,"html":"<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"lDePBdT91N\"><a href=\"https:\/\/denizcankizil.tr\/en\/haberler\/gundem\/yazmasam-deli-olacaktim\/\">Yazmasam Deli Olacakt\u0131m<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" src=\"https:\/\/denizcankizil.tr\/en\/haberler\/gundem\/yazmasam-deli-olacaktim\/embed\/#?secret=lDePBdT91N\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8220;Yazmasam Deli Olacakt\u0131m&#8221; &#8212; Av. Deniz Can K\u0131z\u0131l\" data-secret=\"lDePBdT91N\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\"><\/iframe><script>\n\/*! This file is auto-generated *\/\n!function(d,l){\"use strict\";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&\"undefined\"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!\/[^a-zA-Z0-9]\/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),c=new RegExp(\"^https?:$\",\"i\"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display=\"none\";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute(\"style\"),\"height\"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):\"link\"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute(\"src\")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener(\"message\",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener(\"DOMContentLoaded\",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll(\"iframe.wp-embedded-content\"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute(\"data-secret\"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+=\"#?secret=\"+t,e.setAttribute(\"data-secret\",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:\"ready\",secret:t},\"*\")},!1)))}(window,document);\n\/\/# sourceURL=https:\/\/denizcankizil.tr\/wp-includes\/js\/wp-embed.min.js\n<\/script>","description":"\u201cS\u00f6z vermi\u015ftim kendi kendime: Yaz\u0131 bile yazmayacakt\u0131m. Yaz\u0131 yazmak da bir h\u0131rstan ba\u015fka ne idi? Burada namuslu insanlar aras\u0131nda sakin, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bekleyecektim; h\u0131rs, hiddet neme gerekti? Yapamad\u0131m. Ko\u015ftum t\u00fct\u00fcnc\u00fcye, kalem k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t ald\u0131m. Oturdum. Ada&#8217;n\u0131n tenha yollar\u0131nda gezerken can\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131rsa k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck de\u011fnekler yontmak i\u00e7in cebimde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ak\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. Kalemi yonttum. Yonttuktan sonra tuttum, \u00f6pt\u00fcm. Yazmasam deli olacakt\u0131m.\u201d \u2015 Sait Faik Abas\u0131yan\u0131k, Son Ku\u015flar Bu paragraf\u0131 defalarca okuyup, \u00fczerine saatlerce konu\u015fabilirim. A\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmezden gelen bir hastan\u0131n, \u00f6nce ilac\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131p sonra tedavisini kabul etmesi gibi&#8230; Sait Faik \u015fansl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f; ilac\u0131n\u0131 daha ya\u015farken bulabilmi\u015f. Ama herkes bu kadar \u015fansl\u0131 olam\u0131yor. Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7erken pe\u015f pe\u015fe, i\u00e7inden gelen \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klarla ruhunu yakan, yanarak g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcp giden insanlar var. Kimi merhemini bulamam\u0131\u015f, bulsa da s\u00fcrememi\u015f yaras\u0131na. Cesaret edememi\u015f, benden ge\u00e7ti demi\u015f. Ruhumuz bizimle konu\u015fmaz pek. Bizim hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011fimiz dillerde anlat\u0131r kendini. Sessizdir, sab\u0131rl\u0131d\u0131r. Bir tek can\u0131 yand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fckselir sesi. Bazen bir kad\u0131n o sesi duyar eline f\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 al\u0131r, tuvale dokundurur ad\u0131 Frida Kahlo olur. Bir adam yumru\u011funu s\u0131kar, ringde hayk\u0131r\u0131r ad\u0131 Muhammed Ali olur. Kimi kalemi al\u0131r yazar, kimi s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 takar yollara d\u00fc\u015fer. Ama ruhun ne diyece\u011fi \u00e7oktur asl\u0131nda. Dinleyen i\u00e7in&#8230; E\u011fer onu anlad\u0131ysan; \u015fansl\u0131s\u0131n. Dilini \u0131s\u0131r, kimseye s\u00f6yleme. Sadece yap. Ama h\u00e2l\u00e2 duyamad\u0131ysan, dur. Sessizle\u015f\u2026 Cesaretin var biliyorum. &hellip;"}